i'll keep fighting for your LOVE

baby love - nicole scherzinger

Monday, May 31, 2010

it's been ages since i last saw you around,
that was then. this time you came back, you linger around..
i think, you could have guessed i dont smile as often.
maybe you're here to guide me, maybe you're here to show
me that i am not all alone.
thank you bbl, :'(

Yours Truly; AI NA

LALALA - Auburn

Saturday, May 29, 2010

spent the whole of friday with hubby dearest(:

guess i must be the most fortunate girl on earth.

had a fiance who's so supportive of me..

i ultimately LOVE LOVE love him

guess what...

im allowed to paint his toe nails (:

its not the first time..

but this time i did french pedicure for him,

its a shiny gold base and pink tips!

and it turns out almost perfect..

im so proud of myself, and he's proud of me..

imagine, he walks around with a piece of my art work.

awww..

Yours Truly; AI NA

like a boy - ciara

Thursday, May 27, 2010

I WILL RULE THE WORLD SOMEDAY,

THE MESSAGE WILL GO ROUND AND ROUND,

AND AT THE END OF IT, THAT IS.... MY NAME

che vita, huh?(:

Yours Truly; AI NA

forever - drake feat lil wayne

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

i've been a bum for too long.

never doing anything right.

all talks, no action.

damn, what kind of human being am i?

i seriously need some big time reflection and get on

with the company :(

im proud of mummy, and i sympathise her.

we've done this well.. only to find out that i almost

ditch her and the company..

im so guilty. god, kill me please?

Yours Truly; AI NA

angel's cry - mariah carey ft. neyo

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

what do you do, when suddenly you felt like
you cannot get a hold of your life?
and it all looks so bland, feels so meaningless?

i need to figure things out.
mayb its time for punishments

Yours Truly; AI NA

you and i both - jason mraz

i cannot continue doing this, i have to stop.

its getting ridiculous, it has become an option.

last night, i sat in th shower, with the water running..

for a very very long time.

chuk came in, he got so worried.

he hugged me, caus he miss me.

i said, he is Stitch.

then he said, i'll be his Lilo.

and this morning, after i woke up, still lying next to him,

i told him, i miss him (:

Yours Truly; AI NA

omg - usher

Sunday, May 23, 2010

it's not the first, and it wont be the last.

now i know, what family means.

family means, watching you when you suffer

and curse you till you die.

Yours Truly; AI NA

if you want me to stay - neyo

Saturday, May 22, 2010

i want a bedroom like thhhhhhhhhhhhhhhis! ^^

BAAAAAAAH ;(
im sick, sick sick!
chuk, hit me and pushed me last night when he's asleep
=.=tsk , bbbbbbboooooooo___________!
im a very happy girl, we spent the night together.

Yours Truly; AI NA

about a girl - sugarbabes

Thursday, May 20, 2010

you don't know about a girl. i'll take over the world,
and im going to party like woah-oh-oh-oh-oh!

Yours Truly; AI NA

real love - massari

A.F.F.I.N.I.T.Y

do you believe in AFFINITY?

ask yourself.

if you believe in fate and the undescribable,

then you're almost there, you roughly know

what affinity is all about.

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Chuk wore a shirt same colour as me today:(

ppfffts! not the first time already.

i wanna see how you & i lookalike, and how much chemistry we own

Yours Truly; AI NA

when you're mad - neyo

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

this was then, when we were still living together.

because of you, i had greater dreams.

because of you, i do things i never did.

because of you, i change my perspective of life and its people.

after all this while, it hits me suddenly..

i dont know what're we doing, i dont know what you want.

I'M SCARED, MORE THAN BEFORE.

it feels like i dont know you, anymore.

ever since that day, i just dont..........

how could you, do all this to me?

Yours Truly; AI NA

if i had you - adam lambert

i dont know how to,

can you tell me how to?

no, i need you to stay away a little while.

caus i dont think, i can take this.

i dont think, by seeing you will keep me sane.

Yours Truly; AI NA

i wanna touch you - colby o donis

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

C.O.M.M.I.T.M.E.N.T

commitment baby, talk to me again when

you've purely understand what it means

to be committed.

i didnt force this upon you.

Yours Truly; AI NA

beautiful - akon

Monday, May 17, 2010

last night, chuk got me to admit that he touched me=.-

just when i was craving for love, he called.

and oh, he's back (:

met him in the wee of the night.

tell me, what else beats that?

all he wants to do is to sleep with me.

in the end he sleep in my arms..

how cute is that ?

i love you chuk, come on!

Yours Truly; AI NA

loneliness - babyface

Sunday, May 16, 2010

i haven't felt like this for a long time.

the thought of isolation, plays in my mind.

not because i wanted to, because i think i ought to.

till this point of time, even talking seems to be using

so much of my energy.

maybe because i was traumatised, maybe because

i let all this trivial things get to me so easily.

i wonder, if anyone ever stop thinking?

caus i never did, even when its time for bed.

i dont need everyone to know what im going thru,

i just need someone to know that im trying hard.

Yours Truly; AI NA

bounce - sarah connor

i dont need a man that i can live with,

i need a man that i cannot live without

Yours Truly; AI NA

solo - iyaz

Saturday, May 15, 2010

my diary planner's WAY busier than this!

this! this! this!

sometimes, i feel so sad :(

i pity my legs, it must have been hard on them

walking more than 10000 steps a day..

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no, if you must ask..

im not happy, not happy yet.

i thought everything was great, doing great doing fine..

just when we thought we dont have to do much more,

we dont need anymore people..

everything dies away..

i must pick up all the pieces.

and im going to make this work!

Yours Truly; AI NA

parachute - cheryl cole

Friday, May 14, 2010

another cousins' date tomorrow :D

i cannot wait, cannot wait, cannot wait!

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if you must know, sometimes im the one who felt like

a bloody pet. all i did was to accomodate, sacrifise and

swallow my pride and anger.

think of me for once....

i wanna see how you react upon my death

Yours Truly; AI NA

sunshine - lil flip

Thursday, May 13, 2010

the last thing i need to know before i start work is someone

important to me, just passed away.

i felt so helpless, so lost, so depressed.

& worst, i couldn't give her a last kiss.

nek, i'll always always love you.

i wont forget how much you kissed me:'(

Yours Truly; AI NA

one less lonely girl - justin bieber

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

i cant wait to meet this girl, up there !

happy birthday lady BITCH (:

happy birthday ENA sis !

im beat, exhausted, totally.

extended my last day til thursday.

aftermath on friday, i still have to go down the office,

and then accompany mummy to business meeting.

i dont know, if im ready.

i dont know if it excites me..

but i know i must do this.

Yours Truly; AI NA

favourite girl - justin bieber

Sunday, May 9, 2010

i'll be waiting, waiting till someday you finally realise
all that i've done. for me, for you, for us.
call me your baby, your favourite girl,
tell me you know. you know all that i've done.
and that is, more than enough for me.
i dont need any other present .

Yours Truly; AI NA

one wish - ray j

Friday, May 7, 2010

for a moment yesterday, i thot it was real.
i was screaming inside, screaming so much i wish
the stars could hear me.
i thought the phone was a wonder phone.
i thought they could send the text to LITTLE STARS,
when i typed little stars besides the "to:".
then it failed.
then i tried and bluetooth my little message to the
little stars above, and it failed.
and then he asked, asked what was i trying to do.
and i replied, send a text.
i started covering my ears and scream inwards.
then he helped me, and then sent.
but it wasnt in my sent items.
i should have known.
after awhile, i received a text, with the sender's name
: LITTLE STARS
they said they heard me.
they told me things no one else did.
and lastly they said im not lost, im in baby star's heart.
and baby star happens to be my boyfriend.
i hugged him so tight. so tight.
untill....
and the rest was history

Yours Truly; AI NA

superhuman - chris brown feat keri hilson

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

i didn't know that there's such word as OVER WORK.

i only knew that i've come to be lethargic over the months.

i wasn't passionate about my jobs, excluding my first.

i didn't thought mummy plans' were going to succeed.

i've got no idea where i got that crazy courage from to

sit in front of the damn screen for more than 6 hours

completing my task. thinking of ways to improvise.

and then i'd a scolding from you, for being hard on myself.

of course i had to, it's my family's business. everything else

was at stake, time's ticking what else can i do?

yes, i dont have a family to feed.

i dont have to worry about starving.

but i wouldn't want to see anything fails either.

i dont wanna lose anything, not a single hair.

and the last thing i want to see is your picture all over

someone else's blog. not that it really matters.

goodnight

Yours Truly; AI NA

real love - massari

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

if ever you think i can always forgive,

then maybe you're wrong.

Yours Truly; AI NA

omg - usher feat will.i.am

Monday, May 3, 2010

i miss shopping, bitch!

finally, i came to a conclusion that people like

me who works shouldn't bother to shop for clothes so much.

caus work provides uniform :(

i dont like..

no choice!

@#$%^&*

danggggggg.

i miss chuk , miss shopping, miss my son!

Yours Truly; AI NA

all i want - jehro

Sunday, May 2, 2010

everyone's changing, so must we (:

told chuk i want a makeover then he says he wants it too!

he said : "i need a new haircut...and...."

me: "i help you!"

him: "do what?"

me: "i help you do pedicure (:"

HAHAHA.

aiyooooooh! die byyy, they gonna laugh at you:D

pink toe nails with glitter tip!

Yours Truly; AI NA

nothin' on you - b.o.b

Saturday, May 1, 2010

yesterday my chuk wore a shirt same colour as me

without any planning or whuteveeeeeeer(:

black wit colour colour stripe.

that's what we call "CHEMISTRY".

which apparently have the same term as your scientific

chemistry but has got nothing to do with it at all.

oh how much i miss chuk :(

Yours Truly; AI NA