this whole post solely to my soon-to-be fiance.
i haven't dedicate a decent post for him, in any of my
blogs ever since i've got to know him.
i don't know where to start, so if this sound so
wrong pardon me dear.
Dearest You(Mr. Rasheedi),
I never believed that we were ever fated to be together.
You and I, we have the same circle of friends for years, but
we were never introduced formally to each other. Even the first
time we met, we never were introduced. You just happened to add me
on facebook the day after, and I so-just-happened to tag your wall.
It all happened there, i made the move, gave you my number. You
texted but showed no sign of interest. I thought you were extraodinary.
Soon enough, we texted, we met again. We talked, We enjoy each
other's company, We had heart-to-heart talks, We went on dates.
We were everything, nobody would expect us to be. We became inseparable
ever since, never not meeting another for more than three days. WE fell,
fell in L-O-V-E. We knew it, We never had to say, to confess. We just knew.
It just happened, when everything was going fast, way too fast. The very first
official date, YOU my dear, were introduced to my parents. There, at there..
We were hand in hand, you saw my mum and told me. I never believed you.
Because you'd never met her before. Then she appear, you hold my hand even
tighter. I never told you this, but i was like "woah! this guy got guts".
Aftermath, we went to sembawang park. There and then, was everything.
Anything to die for, the view, the scenery, the ME PLUS YOU. We had
heart to heart talks for 3 hours, sitting on the rock near the end. Then we
hugged, th first hug. I could feel and literally hear your heartbeat. THEN...
Th skies are brightly lited by the twenty odd stars that we've counted,
surprise us with an unexpected fireworks from across the border. That was
then, I knew.. It all really began. My own fairytale story.
It took you, awhile more to propose. Nevertheless, I waited. Not because
I was obliged to, but because I had come to love you. I Love You. That day,
i brought you on a surprise date to th botanic garden. Th place you've always,
wanted to go your whole life. You know, I made efforts to do a little research on that.
That night, I'd never see that coming from you. You proposed, at the time I'd never
thought you would. "I DO". Less than a month after we got together, I moved out.
It was tough on you. Our beautiful start of a relationship became strained. No more
exotic dates, more complaints, more stress, more of everything and less of
what is needed. You were torn in between the two. To go home as it is your home,
or to stay with me but make short trips home. Because, I needed you more.
Because, I was alone and I was selfish.
Hours turns to days, days turns to nights, nights become weeks, and soon it was
months. Talks becomes arguments, smile and then tears. I'd seldom put myself
in your shoe, to think of how exhausted you'll be at the end of the day,
having to travel from camp to home, from home to my workplace then back
to our lodge. Financial was tight for us, but we managed to pull it thru. We were
as good as married then, everyone knows that. It seems like a long way, but we're
barely a year together.
After all that we've been thru hunn, i just wanna say THANK YOU, officially.
Thank you hunk, really. For being by my side, for staying by me, for not neglecting
me, for everything that you've done. I love you, more than ever. Even without
all the dates, I'd still love you very deeply. I believe I'll come to love you even more.