(disclaimer: THIS POST IS TO POUR OUT MY EMOTIONS,
PLEASE DO NOT TAKE IT TO HEART. THANK YOU)
is it true, true that you took me for a fool?
if i hadn't showed how much i love you, will it all
be a different situation between us and the way we are?
had i not say that if you're too tired, we can not go ahead
with all the plans? did you say no?
i appreciate them, really. for your will to make things work.
but did i not emphasize, did i not plea for you not to drag my time?
did i not say that if you cannot do it, then dont say.
caus i despise that lot. all talks no action.
its not about being late once, act pathetic and get away with it.
twice, thrice . then cycle over and over again.
because all you need to do was to smile and get away.
smile smile, and bloody smile.
1 hour, 2 and a half hour ..
im not that girl who apologise even if you're late.
dont even think about it.
dont bother trying to talk your way out when you're done,
caus you wont want me to bloody scream the hell out of you.
not a hundred sorry can help you get away with it.
for i believe, punctuality is men's principle.
if you cannot get that right, you cant be expected to do greater things in life.
caus the world waits for no one to improvise.
the money dont wait for you to grab.
the opportunity dont wait for you to take.
yes, there will be time when i am utterly disappointed with you and your acts.
but no, i cannot say it right to your face.
no, i dont want to hurt you.
no, you dont know how much you mean to me.
your talks about the past, the present, the future.
your talks about me being me.
you shed tears, you talk.. talk to me.
how else was i suppose to have felt?
that candy sweet smooches.
those short mesmerising touchs.
you said, thank you. thank me for being there.
what else was i supposed to do?
as much as i cannot live not seeing you on the alternate days,
i know you needed this so much. those rest, the energy,
to replenish, to sustain.. that i cannot give.
those short phone conversations,
i'd still remember vividly.
nothing compares to you.
and that is my word to you.
i am yours through and through.
heart, body and soul.