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NO, YOU DONT PLAY MY FEELINGS LIKE THAT.
NO, YOU DONT TEST MY LOVE LIKE THAT.
NO, YOU DONT MESS WITH ME LIKE THAT.
NO, YOU MAKE ME FEEL PATHETIC.
NO, YOU LEFT ME HELPLESS.
NO, THE TRUTH IS YOU SLEEP AWAY.

MINI COOPER 2010'S EDITION IN RED
ISN'T THIS JUST WOW?!~
omgomgomfg! someone, puhhhhhlease?

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presenting.. THE ALL YOU NEED MAKE UP SET.
what else will someone ask for?!
tweezer, brushes, lippies, moisturizer...



GIORGIO ARMANI (SAMSUNG) VERSION OF OMNIA
this is the most GORGEOUS phone, i've ever seen.
yes, more gorgeous compared to the PRADA one!

GUY : "hey, are you the one with ____ on the bus?"
me: "WHAT?!"
GUY: "remember, i saw you with ____ on th bus last year?"
"we even sent you back here"
me: (not impressed) "oh, so you're that friend of ____, that we saw.."

a moment later, he texted DIDI besty to ask me to text him.
=.- who the hell did he think he was?
no, im not at the very least impressed that he remembers
simple little details of me and what i said even when we're not friends.
even when we're only introduced once and that i cannot even remember.
i dont need to get to know someone who only wants to
show his airs. ( i saw my friend rolling his eyes!)
HAHA .
and the funniest part was, my cousin asked DIDI to ask him to
get a life ! :D



*note: im not blogging about him, im blogging this becaus
im mad. mad at him for reminding me that someone.




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anyway, i've been far too free to think of what i wanna do.
i've been toying with th idea of going overseas to study,
maybe? not now, but later. maybe, maybe not.
god knows how much i'd wanna say.
hubby didnt called today, that spells everything, i think?

(disclaimer: THIS POST IS TO POUR OUT MY EMOTIONS,
PLEASE DO NOT TAKE IT TO HEART. THANK YOU)


is it true, true that you took me for a fool?
if i hadn't showed how much i love you, will it all
be a different situation between us and the way we are?
had i not say that if you're too tired, we can not go ahead
with all the plans? did you say no?
i appreciate them, really. for your will to make things work.
but did i not emphasize, did i not plea for you not to drag my time?
did i not say that if you cannot do it, then dont say.
caus i despise that lot. all talks no action.
its not about being late once, act pathetic and get away with it.
twice, thrice . then cycle over and over again.
because all you need to do was to smile and get away.
smile smile, and bloody smile.
1 hour, 2 and a half hour ..
im not that girl who apologise even if you're late.
dont even think about it.
dont bother trying to talk your way out when you're done,
caus you wont want me to bloody scream the hell out of you.
not a hundred sorry can help you get away with it.
for i believe, punctuality is men's principle.
if you cannot get that right, you cant be expected to do greater things in life.
caus the world waits for no one to improvise.
the money dont wait for you to grab.
the opportunity dont wait for you to take.
yes, there will be time when i am utterly disappointed with you and your acts.
but no, i cannot say it right to your face.
no, i dont want to hurt you.
no, you dont know how much you mean to me.
your talks about the past, the present, the future.
your talks about me being me.
you shed tears, you talk.. talk to me.
how else was i suppose to have felt?
that candy sweet smooches.
those short mesmerising touchs.
you said, thank you. thank me for being there.
what else was i supposed to do?
as much as i cannot live not seeing you on the alternate days,
i know you needed this so much. those rest, the energy,
to replenish, to sustain.. that i cannot give.
those short phone conversations,
i'd still remember vividly.
nothing compares to you.
nothing.
and that is my word to you.
i am yours through and through.
heart, body and soul.

mayb, they've come to take me for granted.
(dont point fingers, you know who you are)





i'd still remember that day, in th bedroom..
when there's only you and me..
i was struggling to live, and you were almost leaving'
then it happened that you have to take me to th hospital.
maybe all this changes are too much, too much to take.
for we're used to living together.
i miss you,

9th :

me: hubby, later marry hor we do 2 celebration, 1
we wear cheong sam then everyone jiang hua yi!
hubby: bu ke yi laaa
me: wei she mo bu ke yi?
hubby: because wo bu ke yi jiang hua yi..
me: wo jiao ni laa:(
hubby: bu ke yi, bu ke yi


HAHAHA. that moron, so cute lor..

10th:
woke up late to tons of miss calls and texts.
tsk. forgot to set alarm clock .
my besty ended school liao , she came up my place.
had a little heart to heart convo (:
then we rush to meet my mummy at the bank.
mummy was at th counter by th time we reached.
i joined her.. then we started to whisper at each other.
idk why she has got to whisper=.- i laughed so hard.
aftermath hi-tea (my lunch) at my choice of place, jack's.
a course for 3, $80+ ? i kept th change for my mummy.
bus-ed to northpoint, walk a little. laugh here and there.
then rush off to cgh. almost got lost:(
dropped at th wrong stop, must walk back.
acap, rara, an, b, mus and a few others idk were there to visit nasir.
i felt so awkward, extremely.
b thot i'm nasir's gf, i think?
nasir's parents haven go off yet, so someone had to send him up.
as they only limit 4 visitor to a patient.
mus give me his pass so i could go up with nasir.
met his parents, chat, watch teevee.. then after his parents
went off, down we go (:
th rest's history .
bus-ed back with mus, his gf and b to sk.
boy picked me up and sent me to my bus stop.
night, supper wit louis and gf and thad.


11th:
woke up duper late. almost 5plus..
junior called, asked to play pool.
arranged wit hubby to meet at yck.
hubby mrajok, caus 1 shot, i hit 2 ball in
and GG ! (:
aftermath, dinner with his friend layla at novena.
plenty heart to heart talk with him,
till late at night.
those talk about marriage and compromising,
got me so excited but it made me think.
i dont think im ready yet.


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i've got to meet daddy soon! hubby's suffering somewhere in camp.
awww, poor thing . can't wait for tmr and wed! wheeee~

13th:

1. visit to mak's place (my aunt)
2. IT fair (hubby's plan)
3. bugis (for the babygirl)

hope, i can wake up early tmr!

till then(:

9th :
(bear with me, this's a long post)
got so sick of waiting fr hubby, i fell asleep.
altho i've 2 fans to myself, but i wake up sweating.
damn that global warming.. (have you read th news?!)
bloody ridiculous, even air conditioning dont help much=.-
wake up, bathed then run errands for granny.
aftermath, met hubby at 8pm. ps: i was still freaking mad.
anyway, like usual he know how to dismiss them(:
after getting em' fags, hubby randomly piggyback me
and run! fuck, i almost fall front-wards! he fucking RUN!
well, i can't stop laughing. then i suddenly recalled our date
to hortpark.. effing hilarious!
we bus-ed to library.. hubby made us miss the stop!
drop 1 stop after that. oh and hor ..
THE VERY SMART MR RASHEEDI IBRAHIM,
TORTURED HIS SOON TO BE FIANCEE ! grrrrr...
okay, he made me cross and climb over that barrier
in the middle of the road. like cheebaixsxsxsxs.(:
well, i dont need his help, but i almost fell=.-
returned th books and i realised that my neoprint with him's
inside. went to th counter and asked for assistance.
after library, we settled down for dinner at fish and co.
how much i love VISA! tsktsktsk.
then after, hubby made an announcement to me that
he HATES fish and co. (like countless of times)
yes yes, i get it.. no more fish and co.
caus he was feeling uncomfortable.
how cute of him, to bury himself in my embrace..
then its heart to heart talk at a multi storey carpark.
me, him, us, everyone. well, all in all..
its us against the world. everything in due time.
and the root of everything's is, we love each other.
and home sweet home(:
woohoo! 20th family's gathering. dangggggggggg!
it's paintball time!(: hope hubby can join us.
21st cousin's bday at changi, another event!



hubby ,
thank you for the reassurance.
thank you for everything.

i dont know why this is happening now.
i dont know what she means, i dont
know what they want. i dont know
who expect what from me, i just dont know.
i dont understand why she have to say
things like that, why she'd chose not to
becareful with her words and whats not.
heart to heart with my baby tomorrow,
marshmallow & coloured gummies (:
i seriously need a talk with her, im
going crazy . like mentally not sane.
hubby's not awake, im going crazy..
i need a break .
im going out and away .

i'm not sleep yet. spent the past few hours,
reading my previous blog.
hubby's question set me thinking..
can i give up my past? (delete my blog)
if not then he'll do it for me.
it's been months since we're together,
and im still holding onto it.
not onto HIM but all the memories.
bitter sweet, every pieces of everyone.
not until i know that this is what i really want
to do, i'll not delete that blog.
its the last of everything i have.
all th pictures, past convos, random thoughts
and love letters which i've got no duplication of.
not as if i needed them badly, but..
that blog consist all messages i wanna say..
i'd put down names along with message for those
who had offended me. i'd damned them there and then..
now im here..
yes, im sure i want to do this.
yes, im sure that he's the one.
yes, its not much of a risk ..
a little while more, please?


so fast its almost mid-march..
how fast can this be?
i just hope that things will turn for the better.
for me, for you, for us, for everyone.

dear Miss Mo,
i bet your boyf/fiance/hubby-to-be/whatever,
is so infatuated with me. he start kissing me all over.
i've no idea how he get in my house,
can you please do something about it?
in my own opinion, prolly he finds you not
attractive enough. (erhhemmm..)
i dont think i need to teach you what to do..
afterall, i think we'll have problems communicating.
all in all, the overview is please get him out of here.
caus i think his kissings are going a little overboard.
i might have to kill his family if he dont stop.
thank you very much for your time(:





=.- damn fly !

something's wrong somewhere..
i've no idea what or where went wrong..
i thought i thru, but dismiss it only after
thinking that i've been home for too long with
nothing better to do, plain paranoid. but i wasn't the only one.
i can't believe someone told me that.
and i voiced, but you've no idea what i was refering to.
what am i to do ?
this is scaring me.
i can accept anything, just tell me please..

6th :
(overview)
woked up at 5plus PM.
had what they called "dinner" (my breakfast) wit LOUIS ONG.
=.-
back to crib and get ready to sk.
to meet ashik and co. (:
talk talk talk.
and more talk wit joshua LEE, my besty!
& home



ps:
LOUIS ONG : stop calling me for this kind of stupid shit =.-
i know im your very good da-sao !

ashik:
thanks alot buddy from fetching me at th bus-stop to
treating me, to listening to me, to informing me to sending
me back to th bus stop(:

JOSHUA LEE:
please uh, don't step-gerek with me (:
i'm not as popular as you think i am=.-

5th :
(overview)
east coast date with th hubby in the evening(:
dinner at c.nai hk cafe.
cycling till some deserted part of th beach aft bedok jetty.
slack in btw on th mat.
double intimacy.
craps at PP.
pool at kpool.
supper at mac (:
** no pics fr th day
anyway , we'll be going sun-tanning next week
at east coast. hmmmpfts ,
acit the babi haven return me my bikini.
bet, i'll get one on my own..
on a shorter note, every date w/ th hubby's exciting and adventurous.



p.s: launching blogshop very pretty soon..
(those who are waiting, watch out for em')

i felt like the happiest girl on earth (:
i'd spent quality time with ISERHEDA(unscramble)<3

make _____ at the ______ and ______.
makes me feel like ______.
and i cant help but _____ you to ____.
you ran your dirty ____ all over my _____.

(haha, figure out yourself!)
he's like my happy pill. only i dont have to pop them!
haven't been on a proper date for ages :(
well, this friday's a damn casual one, i bet..
hope it'll work out fine(:
anyway, i haven't slept for 2 days..
i wonder is it insomnia or just that i cant get used to
not sleeping next to him? its been only like 5days since i moved
back home? waadoiiii :(
paradoxically, i dont feel tire or whatsoever.
my eyes, they just wont shut..
hmmfpts, random RANDOM thoughts just occured.
i'm gonna start ranting... in 3 , 2, 1...
1. "RASHEEDI darling, where the hell is our diary?"
:( pffffts, its been days almost a week .
to think i can forget ?! argggggggh .
i hope he sees this and make an intiative. if not.....
2. "I'VE PROGRAMMES TOMORROW TO RUN!"
& hor, im doing it alone laa. like waaaaa, sianzxzxzxz.
town to sengkang to central=.- no hubby, no baby, no.....!
wear what huh ? no pumps no loafers:(
sandals? NO, informal. flops? NO, too casual..
HEELS:( killing me wor! 5inch .. my gawwwwwd..
3. "I'm sorry, i can't help it.. too ENERGETIC"
i wish to stop ranting, but hubby's not here:(
he for awhile here then not here then here...
like peek-a-boo(: i miss you!




if tomorrow's a success then everything's in place(:



______;
i already knew who you are.
i don't know your intentions but i'd categorised
them as harmless. i feel for you, i really do.
and it's not my fault, im sorry :(










p.s :
(TO WORLD :)I'M GETTING ENGAGED LIKE REAL SOON ....
(TO ISERHEDA :) HAPPY FINDING MY PLURK! BOO!

she stalks you, then stalk me.
then her profile deleted, coincidentally?



p.s: THAT WOMAN
G-U-T-S-Y !
i likeeeeeeee!
talk to me, talk to me summore..

these people of the past,
they come back. come back, come back.
they talk, TALK TO ME.
please don't give me the creeps.
i dont know, what to say.
if you know that all this doesn't matter anymore,
you'll know where you stand.



p.s: sorry ____, i cant help you this time

i had enough.
i dont want to live with the ghost of my past.
you, you destroyed everything that i used to have.
you polluted my mind.
you became a major distraction for me, in th past year.
coming back every now and then, telling me how
much you miss me, how much you need me.
then cycle, period. finito!
i am so god damn DISGUSTED!
you weren't there when i needed you.
you didn't help save the situation, you cared about yourself.
my reputation, my life, my work, my dignity..
when have i put any of this, before you?
haven't i contribute enough?
YES, i like your company.
YES, you like the way i like how you make me feel.
YES, everyone hated you.
YES, i still remember...
the way you make our body synchronise,
the way you make the beat always skip,
the way you twist and twirl me around.
I DONT NEED YOU TO REMIND ME.
i dont need you to come and ask me to leave.
i dont need you to go and come back when you think
you need me, when you think i'll come.
i dont need you to keep asking about my life.
i dont need your thousand of promises, i never needed you.
it was a mistake.
i dont need you.
NOT NOW NOT EVER, NO MORE!




THERE'S NO YOU AND ME, WE NEVER HAD BEEN.
period .

"I FEEL SICK!"


:( tomorrow's first day of work.
th boyfriend said "stick to what you choose".
okay laa , like WHATEVER.
just when, i was about to start work, COLE HAAN, called
me up for an interview =.- omfg.


moodless.
on a shorter note; I THINK I SAW HIM, JUST NOW!